While Rihanna is known for her awe-inspiring
confidence, the 27-year-old singer nevertheless shows her vulnerable side when
it comes to her controversial relationship with Chris Brown in a candid new
interview with Vanity Fair.
After 26-year-old Brown pleaded guilty to felony
assault and accepted a plea deal in 2009 after an altercation with Rihanna
turned physical the night before the GRAMMYs that year, the singer resumed
dating him in 2013, before splitting up again several months later.
"I was that girl -- that girl who felt that
as much pain as this relationship is, maybe some people are built stronger than
others. Maybe I'm one of those people built to handle sh*t like this,"
Rihanna now shares about her state of min
d at the time. "Maybe I’m the
person who’s almost the guardian angel to this person, to be there when they're
not strong enough, when they're not understanding the world, when they just
need someone to encourage them in a positive way and say the right thing."
Rihanna says she "a hundred percent"
thought she could change Brown.
"I was very protective of him," she
stresses. "I felt that people didn’t understand him. Even after ... But
you know, you realize after a while that in that situation you're the enemy.
You want the best for them, but if you remind them of their failures, or if you
remind them of bad moments in their life, or even if you say I’m willing to put
up with something, they think less of you -- because they know you don't
deserve what they’re going to give. And if you put up with it, maybe you are
agreeing that you [deserve] this, and that's when I finally had to say, 'Uh-oh,
I was stupid thinking I was built for this.' Sometimes you just have to walk
away."
These days, Rihanna reveals the two don't talk at
all.
"I don't hate him," she shares. "I
will care about him until the day I die. We're not friends, but it's not like
we're enemies. We don't have much of a relationship now."
Rihanna says she's currently single despite
recent pictures of her showing PDA with rapper Travis Scott. The "B*ch
Better Have My Money" singer says her last official boyfriend was Brown,
and before that, pro baseball player Matt Kemp. But she insists that she's not
into hooking up for fun.
"If I wanted to I would completely do
that," she says. "I am going to do what makes me feel happy, what I
feel like doing. But that would be empty for me; that to me is a hollow move. I
would wake up the next day feeling like sh*t."
"When you love somebody, that's
different," she adds. "Even if you don't love them per se, when you
care enough about somebody and you know that they care about you, then you know
they don't disrespect you. And it's about my own respect for myself. A hundred
percent."
Above all, RiRi is not willing to settle.
"I will wait forever if I have to ... but
that's OK." she says. "You have to be screwed over enough times to
know, but now I’m hoping for more than these guys can actually give."
Still, Rihanna isn't giving up home on finding
true love.
"A very extraordinary gentleman, with a lot
of patience, will come along when I least expect it," she muses. "And
I don't want it right now. I can't really be everything for someone. This is my
reality right now."
Clearly, both Rihanna and Brown are still feeling
the effects of their intense, highly publicized relationship to this day. Last
September, ET's Kevin Frazier caught up with the controversial singer, when he
talked openly about his not so stellar reputation.
"You have to forgive yourself," Brown
said. "You can't beat yourself up over the years, because it'll just eat
at you and you'll be stuck in the past. And for me, I just learned to be a more
humble individual and more of a conscious person."
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